Entry 18 : The Future Is Now

Hey.
I always feel guilty signing in to Blogger but not having enough ideas to write anything.
Sometimes it's only two seconds of pure glimpses and I'm out.
I want to write a lot of things but I just can't find any juice that's worth the squeeze.
God, I love that quote.

Well, these days I haven't been doing much.
Been watching movies a lot and frankly I love them.
I love watching movies.
I haven't watched movies in a long time so it was awesome to get to watch them, even though only on the PC screen.
I'd like to list out the movies but ... yeah, I won't.

I got into the Kolej Matrikulasi Johor.
I went to two interviews last week.
The first being the interview for PILN-JPA and the other for Foundation in TESL.
I don't know anything yet but I have a good feeling for both of those interviews but I am most likely to register into KMJ.

It's finally happening.
Me, growing up.
Going to college, getting a job and finally die.
Though those things might seem to far away from the present time but believe you me those things will happen today, figuratively speaking.

Anyway, life's going back to the hectic, crazy, bury-your-head-in-books-but-not-really style.
I'll be away from my friends.
I know how that will be like.
It's ... damaging.
Yes, even the strongest bonds break after being ignored for a certain amount of time.
Facebook can only hold those bonds together for so long.

I'm not even a Captain yet in Sudden Attack and I have two separate IDs!
God, I suck.
But I headline like a bad boy let loose, I can tell you that.
I made a new ID so I could join my friend's squad but then my old ID got kicked from Sh@dow_Sl@yERZ so now I'm not a Sl@yER anymore.
I'm a ... Signer?
That sounds so stupid but the squad's great.
But, we don't SB that much anymore.
I'm always, always playing all night long but none of my friends are on from 1 AM, give or take.
I'm used to playing alone but damn it wouldn't hurt to have at least enough people to SB.
What's so awesome with sleeping?
You don't do anything, I mean, come on.

Outings have gone from zero to not even thinking of going out.
The maximum extent of me hanging out is drinking Teh Tarik at the place we always call Rabu.
Let's watch a movie, guys!
Kick Ass is on.
What is with you people and dark places?

Well, yeah, my blog's a place for me to complain but it's the only way I can without making faces or using tones that people find annoying and extremely aggravating.
My life is descending, decaying to something that I find most unpleasant.
I'd like to say I want to relive the good old days but the good old days aren't even that old.
It was only last year.
The last time I went to the movie theater was some time in December of 2009 and that was too watch Twilight: New Moon.
I know, right?
Lame!

I just can't handle ALWAYS being at home all the time.
Don't get me wrong, I love staying at home but the occasional outings with friends are what keeps me calm at home so I can wait anxiously for the next time we go out.
But we rarely do.
I don't wear anything fancy going out.
In fact, I went grocery shopping in clothes people never actually wear two feet outside of the house; and two teachers saw me.
I wasn't embarrassed at all but you know how people perceive you by the way you look and I tell you, I looked phenomenally not awesome.

So there it is.
The future is now and now sucks.
I'd like more to life than just PC games and Teh Tarik.
I don't even listen to English songs that much, can you believe that?
I guess they don't excite me as they did a few months back.
Please, somebody just give me a wild night and I'll be packing my clothes for KMJ the moment it ends, I swear.

Well, see you whenever.
And, no, I won't abandon THE FEAR just because I'm not at home.
Believe it.

"You just got to ask yourself: Is the juice worth the squeeze?"

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